I first read Mrs. Dalloway as a scrambling-to-finish
college sophomore. The books struck me like so much that I read back then, as
something that might make a great impression on me if I were able to allow
myself to linger in its world a little more. It was for me back then a very different
style of writing and one that I’ve come to appreciate more and more in the
years since. I remember writing in college that stream of consciousness was
difficult because I had my own thoughts that I had to keep pushing aside (“like
a windshield wiper” I joked) in order to follow along. Since college, I’ve
grown more fascinated with the style. It’s something that you can really only
get from a book—something a movie can’t do (although, I’ll admit, I wasn’t
completely turned off by the voiceover-heavy Mrs. Dalloway film adaptation I saw that same year in college for
extra credit).
I think the appeal of stream-of-consciousness
is that spooky resonance—that realization that other people are conscious and
have minds that move and turn much like our own. It is, I daresay, one of the
greatest feats of empathy, to write an entire novel in which the thoughts of a
variety of characters—men and women, different ages, from different backgrounds—are
so vividly imagined. It would be impressive enough if the novel were content to
dwell only in the mind of its worldly, titular hostess. Instead, Woolf also delves
into the minds of a hallucinating and trembling veteran, an untroubled
teenager, and, among even more others, a miserable history tutor who detests
our protagonist. The petty clash between Mrs. Dalloway and Miss Kilman is especially
rich in that each one’s thorough hatred of the other is so richly illustrated (and,
of course, explained in logical terms that make the reader sympathetic, for a
moment at least, with whomever the spotlight happens to be on).
I’m still
grappling with what the book seems to say about death and suicide. Dr. Bradshaw,
who means to cure Septimus, might rightly be considered the book’s only true
villain. Septimus’s jump out the window is
depicted both as something the doctor gave him no alternative but to do, but
also as a sort a subversive victory. When Dr. Bradshaw’s patients speak of a
right to die (“In short, this living or not living is an affair of our own?”),
he counters with what he sees as the cure: the re-balancing of “proportions” (whatever
that means). At its core, this is a book that means to illustrate how isolated a
person can feel within her mind. Septimus Warren Smith in hurtling himself out
the window seems to act upon some impulse lurking just below the waters of Mrs.
Dalloway’s mind too, even as she busies herself with superficial details. She feels
alarmed (guilty?) at the thought of a stranger’s death (“Somehow it was her
disaster—her disgrace. It was her punishment to see sink and disappear here a
man, there a woman, in this profound darkness, and she forced to stand here in
her evening dress.”), and she identifies with him (“She felt somehow very like
him—the young man who had killed himself. She felt glad that he had done it.”).
Chilling words in light of Woolf’s own death. If we see Bradshaw as the book’s
true villain, and we recognize as valid the frenzied nature of each character’s
mind (not Septimus’s only), perhaps we can understand this to be a book about
the impossibility, the futility, of ever attaining, as Dr. Bradshaw would say,
a sense “of proportion.” That Mrs. Dalloway, this fastidious and capable and
mature woman at the head of the party—that even she should be troubled and
should have misgivings, this is our solace.
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